A bit emotional at the moment

I got a call from my neurologist and he wants me to move up the spinal tap. So now it is scheduled for Sept 29th.

TERRIFIED!!!! That's me.

I have to call up Social Security and reschedule a phone interview for SSI. It was to be on the 29th.

Today was not a good day balance wise. The dizziness and feeling off balance would not go away and my eyes seem to be taking the brunt of it. This may look normal size writing but I am actually typing it with a very large font.

There is a part of me that hopes that my spinal fluid level is too high and after they take the excess out I will do better for a time. The other part of me hopes the levels are normal. I do not want to face a life of spinal taps every six months or so to keep levels proper.
I can't get a shunt in the chest due to asthma (shunt would normally go from brain to chest area where the excess is absorbed and then naturally gotten rid of, too easy to get an infection) and I can't get a shunt in the stomach area because of the Crohns disease (too easy for infections to start).
If the levels are normal then my neurologist is going to scratch his head and probably retest me for everything under the sun. My mom and I are whispering the initials MS. This time I am not going to put the cart before the horse. I don't want MS.