Hissy fits and gentle tantrums

Well, I guess hissy fits and tantrums win out. :(

I suppose that I like a really good tantrum now and then. It is just that over the years my tantrums did nothing but make my day miserable. I could scream and rant and rage as good as the next person. I have gotten tired of the hissy fit and tantrum lately. Especially with my medical issues. How can one throw a tantrum when they know the situation is totally out of their control? But then again, maybe they are the best ones...?

It isn't that I deal with all the shit that goes on in my life gracefully, rather I deal with it first by considering all the bad and negative things that could be. Then I make myself stop and repeat, almost as a mantra "There are only two things in this world that are so important, Life and Death. You are alive and not dead, therefore, go out and enjoy the day. Laugh at nothing, laugh at everything.

Then again, maybe soon, I could give in and pout for a while.