I am tired.

I am tired of thinking today.
I am tired of justifying my existence to everyone, even myself.

This is who I am, damaged in mind, body and soul.
Believe that people are good.. Hurt when I see that many are really just nasty bastards.

Inside of me, every single day, there is an internal war that goes on.
Did I say something stupid?
Did what I say hurt someone in some way?
Why do I think I have anything worthwhile to say?
Why can't I just shut the hell up?

I am tired of trying to understand.
I am tired of smiling
I am tired of being the nice person

I am most tired of my body not doing what I want it to do no matter what I attempt to do to help it.

I have been saying "Giving up is not an option."
Right now, at this exact moment I want to give up.

and no amount of dandelions is going to get me over it.