Post CK boredom

Deep Sigh,
I am going through withdrawl pains from CK.

I have limited myself to 5 minutes looking thru the threads and blogs. I pick and choose which ones I will go back to.

I find myself very bored today.
I did not plan anything for the day and the water is too cold at the apt pool to swim. I don't sit in the sun very well for long so I just got in a half hour of rays.
I did walk Jazzy for an hour. That was fun and he had a ball.

Tomorrow he gets the family jewels removed. I am still on the fence with this. I believe in spay and neutering animals that you are not going to breed. I am just sad that my little boy will be in pain afterwards.
Heck, he just discovered his balls and now we are going to throw them away!!!

Medically:
I had to shoot up again with the Humira. I have such compassion for diabetics who have to use the needle every day, sometimes 3 times a day. I have to do this once a week for the Crohns and Arthritis and I just cry when I have to stick that dumb little needle into my thigh.
I do it to try and live a decent life, but mentally, sometimes, it just destroys me.

My thoughts are going a mile a minute. I took a leap from needles each week to wanting to rail against my nonexistent god. It can be frustrating being Agnostic. It makes it hard to rant and rave at "god" when I just do not know for certain whether or not he/she/it really exist.