Okay, see here is my Achilles heel so to speak. Almost a year ago I was 316.5 as seen on the left picture. I had seen this face a million times, hated it but got use to it.
Now, as of today December 30th I am actually not 250, I am 248.9. I look in the mirror and do not see "me" any longer. I see a cousin, a relative instead.
That is major "SCARY" to me right now. To still believe I am that person on the left.
But I am not. I am the person on the right. I am most times self assured. I am succeeding at this weight game for the first time in my life. Even with all the things "wrong" I am much healthier than I was one year ago.
One day I will only see the me on the right. I think it just takes time and self reassurance that I am not who I was and I never will be again.
I am attempting to lose the remaining 7.4 pounds by January 24th. If I can, how proud I will be. If I don't, how proud I will still be.
I just can't wait to see me next New Years eve....
2 comments:
I wish I had a hug emoticon for you Callie. I needed to hear that.
Have a great day.
For some people, having the before picture serves as motivation. This is probably the case when their self-image of normal is their thinner self. They see the "heavy person" in the picture as some kind of strange alternate self, and it motivates them to return to normal state. This may not be the case with you. If deep down you see the photo on the left as your normal self or your true person, I would suggest (for what it's worth) that you take down the picture on the left. In fact, I would try to purge all images and vestages of the former person, at least until your mind forms a new image of who you are. Again, just a suggestion.
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