Panic and Anxiety

Thats all.
I am in the middle of it and it is paralyzing me.
I ate one egg and a handful of baked potato chips. I drank 20 ounces of protein drink. These have been the only things I have been able to put down my throat in the past 48 hours due to stressing out.

The hardest part here is I have my logical grown up side arguing with my 3 year old defensless child. I know things will work out alright. I feel like I am getting the crap beaten out of me by a mean nasty cruel world. At the moment the beating is winning.

I called my therapist though and got an appt with her for 1pm today. I always feel like such a schmuck when I feel like I need someone to take care of me to get me through all this.

Sigh, three steps forward, one step back...