Sharon, I wish I could have the faith you have. It just is not easy for me to believe.
Big Sis, Vicki, I could use a huge hug only if I had the ability to give one back.
My Neurologist, Dr. L. increased my med's. I am now taking Neurontin. Lets just say I am taking double what I was on a week ago. I am destined to another spinal in a month or 6 weeks.
I fell on my keister yesterday because my feet would not do what my brain asked of them.
I scared my aide and mom more than me. I actually just wanted to sit on the edge of the curb and laugh. It wasn't that it was funny haha, it was just another thing I could not control. If I had not laughed I would have just asked to be put in a padded cell for a while.
I am so furious that I am losing more and more autonomy each day. I want to just jump in my car with my dog and go driving. I want to get up in the morning and walk my Jazzman.
I am lost, as I was a long long time ago, when I was first dealing with the Crohns disease, in the jungle and I just am having such trouble getting out.
Right now the only thing calming my mind and body, believe it or not, is a Barry Manilow CD:
Just a really wonderful album.
I suppose I need to be in my field of dandelions....
Oh, yeah, insult to injury. Never heard back from Robert. Ah well, better luck next time huh?
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Just sending you a cyber hug. You seem like you need one. It is ok to have days that are not positive. Just remember when you get up the next day that it is a new day and you will make it. :)
Living with pain on an almost daily basis will give you negative feelings from time to time, ya think? Seriously, never apologize for how you feel. Only you live in your own skin and you know what you're going through. Some days you just need to vent and flip the world the bird. I'm sorry, though, you are dealing with it. :hugs:
I would certainly say this is Robert's loss. He will never know what he is missing, sweet child.
I love you,
Momma Bess
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