A very bad day.

PAIN.

Very very despondent regarding recovery from this pain.
More narcotics, stronger narcotics. Fucking stoned. Gee, ya think if I get to be a junkie I will then be able to get my Social Security disability?

1. Cervical MRI: Degenerative Disc Disease. happens with age. Bullshit. I looked it up, it is normal for someone in their 70's.

2. Spinal Tap: Twice opening pressure is way over even high normal. Taps were done one month apart. WHY THE FUCK AM I TAKING A DRUG that does not seem to help? It just makes me physically angry and irrational due to the sulfa in the drug.

3. Lumbar MRI: Bulging Disc, Degenerative Disc Disease. FUCK THIS!!!!!!!!!!


I can not even rely on my self to keep my eating undercontrol during my unfill. Did I tell you about my tossing my cookies for a week straight?

I have learned nothing. How do I take care of myself when I have not learned the lessons I need? How do I survive?

I can't even take my dog for a walk and pick up his poop. How sad is that. I was going to get one of those pooper scoopers but there was none long enough for me to not have to bend over at least a bit.

What a horribly sad life when you can't scoop poop....

Hell, just a really bad day for me.