I am reassessing my goals for a while.
I am like an eating machine while my band is underfilled. I have gained 5 pounds. The drugs I am on also have a wonderful weight gain side effect.
So, I am not going to make it to 241 (-75 pounds) by my bandiversary at this point.
I will be happy with 250.
I am also reassessing what weight I am going to shoot for by the fall. I wanted to be somewhere in the 180's. I am now taking some pressure off of me and just looking to get to 199.
Two weeks until I get most of my fill put back in.
But, I realize I still have a whole lot of head crap to work on.
One of two things are really going on, the Vagas nerve is dead and I really cannot tell on my own when I am full, or, I haven't learned a damn thing about treating my body correct.
Bullshit on the stress, and disappointment angle. Boo hoo, I lost my dad. Lifes a bitch, I want to be thought of first, not as an afterthought.
NOTHING should prevent me from treating my body properly.
I have got a lot to learn...
2 comments:
My sweet girl child,
You look awesome in your new pic.
I am sorry you are having so many problems.
I love you,
Momma Bess
I have allot to learn also. Hey Little Sis, we cannot learn how to undo 40 years of habits in one year, right? We are on the right road, just a few detours once in awhile as we figure out the whys of it all.
Hugs Sandra
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