IF NOT NOW, WHEN?

This comes from Vicki's CK motivational thread. I like them. They make me think. I wish more people used their brains.

IF NOT NOW, WHEN?Unless the pain of an experience is bad enough, and the misery strong enough, most people will not make the decision to change. They stay inside their comfort zone and put it off for another day....What do you Value? Health? Your appearance? Family? Career? Learn to see your vision. CLOSE YOUR EYES AND SEE YOURSELF ACHIEVING YOUR GOALS. See yourself as the person you have changed into.

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I thought I would have something to delve into with this. The actual post was longer than here but what I italicized were the statements heart.

So many do not change unless they get into a place where there are only two doors: Death, and Life.

I stayed in my comfort zone for years and years and years. It was way easier then challenging myself and my belief system.

What do I value? What made it so that I pushed my belief system aside and accepted a new way of living into my psychi?

I value my nieces. Wanting to be a part of their lives. Knowing that if I continued down my path of mental destruction, not accepting that somethings in my life are out of my control, I would not live long enough to see these two wonderous creatures grow into adults.
I began to start to value myself. I opened my mind up and forgave myself for what I always considered was a failure in myself. "IF I ONLY HAD..." was banished. "I SHOULD HAVE..." got tossed also.
I value true friends, those who stood by me when I decided on the WLS. Those who cheer me on with every AHA moment I have through this journey.

A long time ago my brother, the college professor, and I were discussing what was more satisfying in life. Here was the choice: Having written and publish a well written, thought provoking article or book; or Riding a Rollercoaster.

He chooses the writing. It involves thought, and thorough research, you learn something from it.

I use to agree with him. Then I had an AHA moment one day when I was recovering from yet again another bout of Crohns.
I wanted the rollercoaster. I wanted something outside my comfort zone. Something that had no meaning but scarey fun.

Sometimes, you gotta just say fuck it and go for it.