meandering thoughts...

Please, just remember, my blog, my opinion and not a rant about religon...


You know what I saw and read and listened to this past week, other than the sound of me moaning in pain ;) ?

(And mind you this was not only on CK but on OH also, and at my WLS christmas party.

1. I weigh too much, I am horrible.
2. I am going to blow my diet totally because I KNOW I am going to eat too much.
3. Ugh, I am not where I want to be and it is the end of the year and I can't stand myself.
4. etc. etc. etc.

Now, here is what I heard from my own mind:

1. I am worthwhile. Why do I persist in sabotaging my success? Because I do not know how to succeed. It is scary.
2. If it is scary, then it is something I will conquer. To complain without resisting is a failure in my book.
3. Since I will conquer the fear of success, I am not complaining about the few ounces I gained over the last week. To me a few ounces will not turn into a few pounds.


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I am not religous, I am sure I have said it before. I was born Jewish, raised Jewish. I tend toward Ethical Culture though in my belief system. That and a belief in the idea that you cannot destroy the soul which just joins the cosmos...

but...

I am a bit appalled with the crap that was the holidays. I kind of am every year but it seemed to bother me the most this year.

I watched my niece open her Hannukah presents while she was up here. Now, I know that my brother doesn't believe in any religon, much less Judaism, but Hannukah is not about religon. It was the story of a people fighting for what they believed in. The oil, of the lamp of life, whether it lasted 8 days or 8 hours or 8 minutes more than it should have was just a bonus. The Maccabees won the right to have the choice of beliving in their religon and not to be forced to believe in something they disagreed with.
THERE WERE NO PRESENTS GIVEN OUT. The closest is the dredle game. This too has no true religous backing. It was used as a game for children during the times before the common era so they could learn their torah. You see, even back then, one's religon was not allowed to be chosen. It was dictated and Judaism was not one of them. Children learned in secret. How better to help a child learn than to make it a game and keep the invaders off your back.

I wanted my niece to understand this all. My brother would not let me. So much for history.

I have also listened to my aide talk about all the presents her kids got as well as what her oldest kids got their kids for Christmas.
I watched commercials, listened to threads, again, not only on CK but OH and etc also.
I want a watch
I want the ____________(Insert electronic game of the day)
Why can't I get ___________(Again, insert game of the day)

Why are they celebrating something that truly has nothing to do it seems with "their savior".
But, you say, Jesus was born on Dec 25th. Bah, he was not and there is tons of historical evidence that he was born during the spring during the census counting and Joseph and Mary had to go to Bethlehem to be counted.

What they are celebrating is from a pagan ritual that occured on the winter soltice. Way back when, when it was believe that nature had souls and we are all part of nature, there were people who lit up the dark nights with candles and fires to keep the evil spirits away. Darkness equal evil.
I love the way the lights look now. Always did. They always helped keep the night lit for me.

Now, to the presents, sorry, St. Nick, the original one would be outraged at what happened to his concept of a toy for the children during that same winter solstice to play with because it was too cold to be outside. Indoor playing at the time I guess consisted of counting how many logs were left for the fire.

I know there are people out there who understand. They do not over do it. They go to temple or church and thank the cosmic leader for all that is good in the world and hope that the coming year will be a sweet one.

So, my holiday gift to you all is
Find the joy in the little things in life.
Do what you can to make your life better.
Make sure you and your family have health and happiness all year long.

And then, when the time feels right. Buy yourself something nice.

Love to you all.